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July 1st - a brand new life

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 10:47:36 GMT

I cannot believe that I have never updates for ages.
Well, sis mostly takes all the scans and etc.
As for me I try to find my lost soul.

I still cannot really see I am fitting in this world here in this country.
It is just so not interesting.

Well... as of today I have worked for 5 weeks now.

Mainly desk job... for a QS.

I want to go to the tank and check out the new Tank.
The biggest one as I can see.

I suddenly felt like crying as my heart hurts..
I heard that certain friend has moved on so much and while I am still stalling here in this space bubble of mine.
When will I be awake from this stalling.
My memory lost problem is getting worse.

I scared but also feel angry about this.
I need to moved out of here.

Shocked!!

Wed, 20 May 2009 16:06:18 GMT

Sometimes, I just do not know when to stop and being too much to handle.

I was playing and being mean to the person and she was already in her near-tears coz the towel that was covering her is hurting her and eating her skin when I tried to pull it down.

In the end, I got my hair pulled. And it was a big bunch. It was like I was feeling my head skin being cut off my head. I can feel the separation of my skin with the skull. I just drop down holding my head and tears flow out my eyes. I was terrified and I was scolded that I was being such a mean pain in the ass.

Whenever I was talking,
I was told I was too loud,
or too babyish or too noisy.
I was told to shut up when I want to give a say.
I know I am talkative but I tried not to be babyish voice
and
I was told I am being tom boy like a man.
And do not have any lady like.
I was told I am ugly.
I was told I am being a nuisance.
I was told I am being a burden.
I was told that I am a cunning person.
I was told that I am problem.
I was told I am a curse child.
I was told.......

I was told I never grow up.
I really hate being here.
If I have money, I will just leave this place and back to where I was.

I just shut down, I have wished ever since I was a child, that I never been born.
But it will be too rude to those who never make it to the world.
I try to live normal.
But I am lost.
I cannot find myself any light shinning on me.
I am being a nuisance?
I am being a burden?
I am being a stupid idiot?

I wish I am away from here. I have been here for too long.
There is some weird thing keep happening.
I think I am releasing a beast out.

Someone, who will shed me hope.
and I know it is impossible because hope come from chances.
And chance have to be create by myself.
Why I have no gut to blame others for what is wrong with me?

I hate this disgusting me.
I hate this annoying me.
I hate this dumb me.
I hate me.

I need to love me. But the diseases are spreading fast.
I am dying from a ... souless being.

Drive - Too Fast Too Furious

Fri, 01 May 2009 15:27:46 GMT

Happy Labor Day. It is 1st May! Time flies and it seem like yesterday, I was at Japan - Zojoji temple to have my countdown at 31st December 2008. Guess what, 3 more days will be lovely Pon's 24th birthday. A big man and turning into a mature Guitarist. Way to go.

My job hunting still pending. This country is lack of job opportunity, They are slow with everything. Drive very dangerously and always have a brain of square as they don't think round or outside the box. Sometimes, I wish I am a policewoman, or some sort of officer, because this country need a real make over.

I just adore driving.
Well I reached city around 1130am. Just made it before the lunch break. Oh boy, the Hp customer service were all Malay and they are shy. Talk so softly. I met my lost in contact High School girlfriend. She just graduate. Doesn't she still look the same.

Then with lodging the laptop to them, mom and I off to Brunch. The waitress was weird. We asked for curry fish, the whole fish, and she came with a craypot fish fillet. What the!? Mom was so turn off and mad. But we still ate it. Not to be mean, the waitress are all "ban tung sui" aka half-bucket water which mean lack of profession. Duck and chicken cannot click together. They should have a chinese waitress in this chinese restaurant. The food was okay.

After brunch off to shopping. Finally, I bought all the cosmetic cares I need. ^^ Happy (/^_^)/ Only this supermarket got the item I need. Spent quite a lot there aeh. Mom paid though. Time flies, and it was already 130pm. Hohoho... off we going home. But mom suggested to go to SuperSave before reaching home. So we headed to Seria. Muahahaha.... Another drive. Was told to drive 100km/hr, yet I flew the car to 120 sometimes to 140. Mom really wants to kill me for that. *MOM said I am a tomboy. Whooow, I am a lady who like fast car ;P*

In the end, we reached home at 430pm. A long day and a long drive. But I love it.

Came home happy with a lot of shopping.

Need to go and get my mask off. Good night everyone, sweet dream. Miss all the fun on LJ and everything back at Perth.

Sping clearance #1

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 14:29:55 GMT

I can never clean...

As a Capricorn woman, I can be very tidy and the opposite

Yes, I used to be a clean freak.
Now I do no even like to think about it.
Mom was furious with the way I turn the bedroom into a junkyard.

XD I just browse through my photos taken from last year. Yes I found my junkyard living in hell from Perth. This bedroom I shared with my bro soon will be turning into one. Bro did not complain since he came home from Uni for 1.5 days only.

Yes I have to shake off my bad habit. Enough whining for the day...
Have to start making my life count.

But I do need my own room. There is too much junk that can be consider useless.

Mom just demand me to tidy my jeweleries. Yes I done almost most of it. But it seem a lot missing somewhere.

Conclusion, I am a girl with a lot of junks (but they are "MONEY")

back to cleaning...

Laptop Fried for good

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 11:37:04 GMT

Gosh I shall tell everyone not to buy a HP laptop...
they easily get fried...

my laptop has just fried like 2-3 days ago... I am miserable aeh I can kill a pig now
was taking the laptop to the computer shop for service but I was sent to another shop where they have the motherboard for HP... coz it is totally malfuction...

The guy told me the motherboard was damages... sigh

guess what when I reached the WISMMA shop... gashhh... it was closed for lunch... what... they don't even nindicate they are out for lunch... and when will they open back... wasting my time...

I got a gut feeling that will be broken soon... and should have always backup my file. >__<
Let see tomorrow will go again and I better call them before I go.

After having my driving license... I just love driving... fast car...
Mom was always warning me... XD LOL

way to go Betty BoO... but I have a lot of regrets for my past few years in Perth.
I wanna go
back to Australia for good....

No money... wish mom will win her lottery

skacker and ignorant

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 11:16:14 GMT

I am being a slacker
or The world around me is making me into one
living in the same roof with ppl who doesnt make any concern about me....

I should have just stay in Australia... coz Brunei is such a dull country
no job no life no music no freedom
internet hell slow
service here are bad too...
people are kinda biased

and going to take up a driving test or any government thing like renew passport, renew license need kopi-O aka tips aka money for drink... not just one or 2 $$$
is $100
$200 like that... such an arogant ppl...

not a peaceful country at all... everything doesn't really go with the rules....

like going MIRI... the toll fees should be $3... yeah
and some idiot give $2 so no ticket given... $2 for the staff to pocket in.... $1 saved by the travellers and sometimes... they save $3 by giving back the tickets.... why not making the god darn toll fee as computer count system like MIRI toll fee service for their bridge....

this way government lost money ... and their working staffs pocket in... each day can make hundreds...

let see last time I got my driving test... I passed ok... but while I was waiting for my turn, the what so call Officer they called certain people in and ask for minum... aka tips again.. if no tips they will not sign the paper as you pass or fail the driving test depend on them... well each day have like 15 student taking the driving test... half of them giving tips off the officer, whow what a great way to cheat the commoners money by eating up $100 and $100
I heard a middle-aged man said that he just gave $170 to the officer in order to make his daughter to pass the driving test. Last time, that officer failed her daughter because of not following instruction. this time follow the rules... they still ask for BIG TIPS!!!

what a world? The government seem to be ignorant to this matters and lots of peple wont defy them as they are superior than us commoners. What so good beig born ino this country with so many discriminant between them and us. Beind born here doesn't consider us Bruneian. And while travel to other country people tend to ask the same question... which country are you from if you are not a citizen of Brunei? I have answer this question like forever. Stateless to Permenant Resident is nothing... soon we might be cast out.... Like for jobs with the higher authority always demand for their own kind "CITIZEN". So why I ahve to come back to this country to be here and stalling every single moment and being regreting... for sure...

I want a leave... far away from here...
I wanna to take off o a place where no one will discriminate me as who I am

I wanna to be far away from all these corrupted society...

Sorry Brunei... you may be peaceful and beautiful and small... like my History teacher used told me... like I used to look at Brunei as one peaceful lovely country but the truth is there are a lot of ugly behind the mask. So beware and be prepared for the worse to come...

Saga + Shou

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 08:07:22 GMT

this is great!!
I have been missing a lot of alice nine. lately.

It is so hot here and I am melting. Gosh... same as what this picture done to my heart. XD LOL

drool they seem to be like brother aeh...

Betty pick up the pace please!! U have been so far behind.
oh peeking on the PSC dvd sis got ... well she did not take out from the pc drive. MY HEART IS RACING LIKE A SHOOTING STAR... one word = MAGNIFIQUE!!

a Boy's love

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 14:55:31 GMT

Gosh... I am touched!

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back.

The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old.

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll.'

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny,
are you sure I don't have enough money?''

The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.

'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.

She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself. He was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't forget me.'

'I love my mommy and I wish she didn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.'

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll!''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!''

'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.''

'My mommy loves white roses.'

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.< BR>
I finished my shopping in a totally different state of mind from when I started.

I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.
Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young
woman and a little girl.
The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical
state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the
life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is
still, to this day, hard to imagine.

And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Now you have 2 choices:

1) Send this message to others, or

2) Ignore it as if it never touched your heart.

The quote of the month is by Jay Leno: 'With hurricanes, tornadoes, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, 'Are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?'

For those who prefer to think that God is not watching over us.... go ahead and delete this. For the rest of us.. pass this on.

The value of a man or woman resides in what he or she gives, not in what they are capable of receiving

Driving Lesson & Wheee alice nine PSC

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 10:34:55 GMT

PSC... goshhhh before going for lesson, dad went to Post office and got the goodies. Thanks heaps VS
I got all my PSC digiprints. They are so hot. well exclude Kra and Kaggra no stock. But i will hunt for them.

Sis said she got me the present RR for Saga cover page. Wheeee and a PSC Magazine. Think I spotted someone. ^^

Early morning woke up and get ready for driving lesson!
dad brought me down to town for the lesson.

My first lesson was parking. Then drive on the road. I admit I drove before and learnt before but that was years ago like in 2006. XD
Was so stiff with my holding on the stirring wheel. Nearly hit the poles many time.
Hit the crutch too fast or too slow and stall the car. Was way cool and fun. Need to breathe probably.

Thats my morning 2 hours from 9am to 11... then have to wait for sis Irene to finish work so we can go to Miri for posting the goods. Well mostly my goods. Then pick bro from uni and come home. 7 hours were fun... I want to learn more driving but the next appointment was crushed with my grandma's appointment with the doc. WuuHuu!!

anyway.... let me go hunt for anyone who will be able to help me get alice nine. goodies for Today start of the concert.
Gosh I just love Hiroto, he always introduce the goodies... seem like 3 tshirt aeh... and more porch and strap etc... gosh I am broke...

Sis's bday today. No present for her. We got her something before for the lunar's bday.

gosh I am hot... and sweetie... errmmm sweatie... its sure hot

PSC DVD 2009

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 14:49:16 GMT

whow.... i cannot believe the dvd is in the process....

missing the moments in Japan, that night at Budokan watching all the PSC's artists.

Must ask my seller to book me two

Opps I just remember Saga's fall! i haven't update lately.

aND 7 DAYS LEFT FOR ALICE NINE'S concert. I wanna be there...

kinda miserable at the moment. As I need to get a job by March so that I can made it in time for the graduation which I postpone 1 year XD

Well need to get my driving learn and get it through....
I have some phobia here.... Lord...

Mooo's year and Miyavi's graduation

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 15:32:53 GMT

Oh my god! I was like What??!! Which Miyavi was my sis talking about? Coz she just complained about Miyavi_addict, poor girl got verdict out. Don’t do it, you will get a lot of haters!

As coming for the Miyavi. The one and only Miyavi. Miyavi-san decide to leaves the PScompany after 10 years. Yeah there must have a graduates for any kind of things. Same goes to music industries.
Have a great achievement and good luck in everything you do in the future, Miyavi-san!
Miyavi-san’s message makes me think... my mind is actually blank but it is stressed out. Always have this burden over my shoulder. I have been back from Australia since Dec 18th 2008.
Now is almost 2 months!
So far, I looked back... well I am sure chubby up a bit since Chinese New Year. ^^
Let see, the best thing happened is the trip to Japan. PSC’s concert is the best. The bullet train’s trips were splendid. Just like seating in aircraft, the pressure of the speed. The cities, each has different flavour in all kind of things. Yummy!
Well, I have to minus the piggy aka my sis (yes, alice9gotgame) whom I brought along with me. She is such a piggie. And piggy’s definition is lazy, stubborn, a passive person, a dumb (well, she did not speak for her own behalf, gahhhhh).
Warning to Betty! Never go out with people who do not respond to you. It was like talking toward the wall. I have met a lot of these kind of people along in my life’s route. But to have a sister who is always like that.... gahhhh... I wanna shake her off her head sometimes.

I did my driving law’s test. Hopefully I got through. The examiner is a very strict person, the worst in my entire school life. Well, he scolded for like 1 hours which was the beginning and after the 1 hour test. Then he did call us back for more lectures and he joked around. Oh boy, he gave me a big ! on my head.
I still need my vacation work experience. I have postponed my Graduation for a long time. It’s time to work soon. March must get a start to work. Sticking at home can be a headache.
The chubbiness come from the prolong sleeping and hanging out with mom. Plus, I do not have my own room. Shared room with no freedom, always meet the same people and doesn’t have own space. It is a big headache for a person who has been strayed outside for 6 years.

I want to have my own space. Sometime, I really want to explode. Still have no driving license and unemployed, not a graduate yet...
What will happened to me in this Ox’s year which an unlucky year for me if I do not start to move my butt and get something done.

What is the words for the ambition for the year? Motive? Reason? errr... I don't remember...

My special Moo MoO

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 10:07:36 GMT

Gosh... these two stuffed-doll will Moo when u press them.

Loser!!! and shipments

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 08:15:40 GMT

LOSER to those who copy the exact same thing and credit as theirs!!!
Curse you curse you!!!

I decide to ask my sister to clear up my uploads. Just because some idiots copy the exact same things we posted in LJ and make everyone who appreciate the work share the same suffer.

well.. I got my shipment from Australia 3 weeks ago. XD I must say... they are a lot. All my alice nine T___T
Sis is always on the computer when she came back from work. And I have gave her my scanner ... well is lending her... now is hers... complicated... she just scans little bits by bits.. Shake Irene!! ~____~

need to sell some thing... but so lazy.. I have been home for 2 months and I am still as lazy as ever...

And I don't have my own room, so everything still in boxes downstair as they are when they were unpacked from the wooden box. ^^

Kyaaa.. need to go shower and maybe ... if I am hardworking, I will take some pics of my precious

Speaking OF PICS.... MY JAPAN TRIPS ... so miss everything there....
Saga-chan... alice nine.-san, PSC-san, kyaaaa Miyavi-san... Oh he is drop death gorgeous too... I always love to call him the LAU TA aka BIG BRO of PSCompany. ^^

My imaginary Saga-chan on the train. He was cool sleeping like that. ^^
Sis saw the real guy... errr.... better don't spoil my imagination XD

Saga on Keyboard at PSC's concert 2009

I wanna hit Miyavi-san. >_< He came out to the Bodukan's coridor at 14.42 on 3rd January 2009. Well... he was lovely but I wanna hit him... why? Because jus 2 minutes before I was at the front and can sure capture a superd pics of him...

Weather dramatic changes causing disasters across the country and the world

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 04:26:06 GMT

2009 is going to have dramatic changes! The flooding that occurs across the country are getting hazardous.

I wonder when will the government take action and try to prevent any further incident such as the landslide that keeps happening lately.

Electricity shortage is also one of the problems!

Communications were cut off!!

I heard today my district, Belait is flooding. My old house, the aunt called mom and informed her that the house was flooded; slippers were washed away to the drainage. Old house was at the down hill, opposite the hill side of the Chinese cemetery. The government people were doing their best for the overnight restoration of the predicted falling of the electricity poll.

My uncle just came and told us about the updates of the district. How people are going to go to work today as they are mostly flooded. The little village café and shopping centre were flooded up to the neck level? What, that’s insane!

I read about last Weekend bulletin, that the South Pole’s ice has melted. People who want to visit the continent better be hurry before everything is gone. The world is in an extreme change. This is part of the process of the earth’s life but it is mostly the human being’s deed. Everyone should be afraid that there might not be a future for the new generation, as we try to correct the mistake that our ancestor has created. We try to clean up the world but there is just too much damage that overnight work won’t do it. The prediction was in about another decade, the world will be a better place but will the world wait. The natural won’t wait for us to correct the damage. It definitely cannot be controlled the population that keeps booming in the 3rd world.

And together with the economic crisis that we are having right now; the bad weather; the natural disaster we can’t predict and the greenhouse effect are causing the world become sicker. Ox’s year might be a worse year than last year.

I started to know the world has changes when I came to Australia the last 7 years. It had a normal winter, normal summer. But last year, summer came late and winter lasted for months. In December, the temperature supposedly is 30+ degrees Celsius but it was 10 degree Celsius as the South Pole’s ice melted and washed toward Western Australia’s shore.

Brunei might not be a safe country anymore as the landslide that keeps occurring and the flooding make it worse. Heard that there might be a tsunami, where Brunei lies in a safe zone. You can never predict the world tomorrow. Be sure to alert and learn the procedure to the safety of everyone lives. This country should start to educate the resident for the safety preparation. At least, a member or two of each family should know the procedure, because Brunei people keep thinking the country is safe. Think ahead for the world.

Brunei flooded on last Wednesday, 21st January 2009

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 04:25:22 GMT

Floods leave many still picking up the pieces
By Achong Tanjong

A typical scene nationwide that fateful night. - Hj Ahmed Shaheeb

The traumatic experience with the flash flood earlier may be over for the flood victims, but it is also just the beginning of another bad headache for them.

This is because they now have to deal with the after-flood problem - clearing, cleaning and repairing and replacing their damaged belongings.

At the height of the flash floods last Wednesday, most of the victims could not save their belongings and only managed to salvage their important documents.

The damaged properties include submerged cars, televisions, refrigerators, computers and their children's schoolbooks, explained a victim at the Public Works Department (PWD) Flat in Beribi.

They had been living at the PWD barracks in Tasek Lama before moving to Beribi whereby the flash floods were a harrowing first-time experience for them.

"The floods rose to almost five feet high," they said. "Now we are busy doing the cleaning works and drying out our carpets, sofas and other belongings."

Meanwhile, another badly affected area hit by the floods is the commercial complex in Gadong. Workers are still seen busy cleaning out shops and making repairs to the damages left by the surging waters.

The recent heavy rains not only caused flash floods to low-lying areas but also triggered landslides. The recent natural phenomenon claimed two fatalities that have been described as the worst-ever disaster that the country has witnessed in 40 years.

A 19-year-old local woman was trapped in a drain at Kg Katok as the fast flowing floodwaters rapidly overcame and drowned her, dying in her father's arms. Another 46-year-old Chinese woman was trapped under the debris of mud and concrete when a landslide hit her house in Kg Lambak while she slept.

The floods also caused power outages to several areas in the Brunei-Muara district after the power station in Gadong was inundated by floodwater. Even though power and water supplies have now returned to normal, many of those directly affected in the wake of the flash floods are now left picking up the pieces.

Praise must be given to the emergency, health and rescue services that braved the elements to do their utmost best in helping to reduce damages to lives and property despite the elements, but many now begin to question the so-called preparations and effectiveness of the National Disaster Management Council of Brunei Darussalam, that were not seen being utilised or implemented that evening.

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 14:49:58 GMT

My languages are all getting all mixed up

lack of decisions

lack of motivations

The energetic bubbly, somewhat come to a point annoy girl is gone...

will she be gone forever...

I hope so...

As due to that...

I am being ignore...
I am being left behind...
I am being accuse of never being an adult at 23...

Stupid voice...
Stupid head...
stupid face...
Stupid body always consume all that I eat...
Why I gained bloody weight easily...

DID...!!!

Bloody Hell whining

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 14:41:45 GMT

Mood Swing...
A terrible broken soul...
Ignore the fact I am being the extra...

Hate the fact that my earning of special goodies has been destroyed because of my blood idiot stupid decision...
because of my kindness...
regret a huge part of my life...

I am a bad girl...
I am a mean girl...
I am such a headache
I am a pain in the ass...

Being here...
Never been perfect...

When was the time that everything changes...
I always think too much...
Worried too much...
Having all the bloody nonsense burden over my shoulder...

Making me very sick...
feeling very heavy and feel like vomit all the time...

No one really listen...
Whining also cause problem...

shut the hell up...
go away...
ever since young I wish to be sick...
But i only have like 2 sickness...
well it should be 3 real sickness...

Primary 1 - no. one big escape from the real world
Form 2 - a whole week without exams..,
Uni year 2 - Sore throat - lost my voice for the first time for the whole week... flu cold season during winter

I am as strong as an ox
People having fun, why I am here feel like crying...
Just all of sudden there will be an aching...
because of all the pressures I consume...
I cannot speak up...
No one bother...
they would say none of their business...
or whatever...

I feel a lot dumber...
Nothing seems perfect...
Of cause nothing will be perfect...
Everything is so stressful here...
I feel like having a boxing class...
I feel like go for a run...
But with this stupid place...
Nothing is convenient at all...
why here is so difficult...

the jerk ass is annoying...
sometimes I feel like I will be killing someone...
The world keep getting older by every seconds goes by...

But I am strolling here...

with this bad ass... attitude...
with this fantasy...
If I am living in the world tallest building...
I cannot guarantee that I will be here tomorrow...

Suicide comes across this idiot mind...
I cannot ever escape this life that I have been living for years...
I don't even know when it happened...
Split personalities are such a nuisance...

Everyone has their split personalities up to a level which consider them still a normal human being...
But in this case...
There seem to be more than the normal people...
The goodies girl that always linger around seem to vanish at this point...

I detest the people at below...
I detest this body...
I detest my health...
But I have to be the one to convince and love myself again...

Today is the first day of this Ox’s year...
That I am being such a loser...
Why?
I am turning into this annoyed super dumb chick...
People says music can cure one broken soul...
My soul...

I am tired of people say about me...
I am tired of people lying at me...
I am tired of reading people minds
I am tired of my strong sixth sense...
I am tired of me being such a pathetic being...

I need to embrace my broken soul... with another personality...
It is always hard to recover from such downfall...

New Hair Cut

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 11:56:43 GMT

got a new hair cut^^ Yippie ~ Countdown for Chinese New Year!!~~

Dyed a bit of red!! Pics in a sec.. see if I get to go onlione with my laptop

wearing my alice nine. discotheque blue t-shirt
Gosh... this t-shirt is sure comfy to wear

Wheee Hiroto

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 15:05:05 GMT

OMGosh.. it's Hiroto
isnt it?

Hot hot Hot

New Header ^^

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 14:58:18 GMT

Nyakhahahaha~

Onee chan ( alice9gotgame )did that for my Birthday. *cheap skate* XP just kidding!

She getting good at photoshop, that's what I thought. As for me, I am getting lazier... I dont upload or updates.. I just ask her do all the things as she always have the desktop.
Too lazy to open my laptop... mom will be saying electricity bills...
Just kidding :P I always away in the morning with mom... busy with Chinese New Year shopping and preparation. Still haven't do the cleaning. Only the other day helping sis to clean her room. But seem like cannot do any more improvement. Her Jrock goodies is all over the room. And soon my goodies are arriving from the port MUAHAHAHAHAH XD

I need to change my life back to the aussie way. Sleep very late. But here it is always raining and thunderstorm, cannot really online if got the storm, if unlucky will have to say bye bye to the gadgets.

wheee
pretty neee... Saga and Nao together again ^^

Auction

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 12:29:36 GMT

If you're interested, click on picture to access.

PSC 10th anniversary Pamphlet
Consists of all PSC bands (Miyavi, Kagrra., KRA, the Gazette, alice nine.) & Indies Bands (SuG & SCREW)
Brand New, Unopened.

2009 Happy New Year Comments DVD
Consists of 2 DVDs, 65 VK bands (some not appear on the cover)
Brand New, Unopened.

Twilight 2008

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 06:33:20 GMT

Watching Twilight here... OMG... He is hot. The quality is bad.. Sis got it online.. I wanna buy my own dvds... + Jrock when I have my own career..
Now am an unemployed free lance. Engineer for hire XD

need to prep for work soon. After Chinese New Year.

Download Nack5 Beat Shuffle

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 12:55:30 GMT

Finally here it is.
Get it here.

More Nack5 Beat Shuffle

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 11:11:29 GMT

I think I really missed the front back stage video.

Looking back last year... it was so fun... XD

ghostly... shou

NACK5 BEAT SHUFFLE 2bcont.

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 10:36:57 GMT

Oh dear.... the internet here in Brunei is slow as snail
And the quality coming out as poor

Still ripping from the net... muahahahaha... but I am so tired from the cleaning of sis 's junk yard room.

her room is like cotton balls of... errr.... dust and moisture... hhahahaha