Happy Labor Day. It is 1st May! Time flies and it seem like yesterday, I was at Japan - Zojoji temple to have my countdown at 31st December 2008. Guess what, 3 more days will be lovely Pon's 24th birthday. A big man and turning into a mature Guitarist. Way to go.

My job hunting still pending. This country is lack of job opportunity, They are slow with everything. Drive very dangerously and always have a brain of square as they don't think round or outside the box. Sometimes, I wish I am a policewoman, or some sort of officer, because this country need a real make over.

I just adore driving.
Well I reached city around 1130am. Just made it before the lunch break. Oh boy, the Hp customer service were all Malay and they are shy. Talk so softly. I met my lost in contact High School girlfriend. She just graduate. Doesn't she still look the same.

Then with lodging the laptop to them, mom and I off to Brunch. The waitress was weird. We asked for curry fish, the whole fish, and she came with a craypot fish fillet. What the!? Mom was so turn off and mad. But we still ate it. Not to  be mean, the waitress are all "ban tung sui" aka half-bucket water which mean lack of profession. Duck and chicken cannot click together. They should have a chinese waitress in this chinese restaurant. The food was okay.

After brunch off to shopping. Finally, I bought all the cosmetic cares I need. ^^ Happy (/^_^)/ Only this supermarket got the item I need. Spent quite a lot there aeh. Mom paid though. Time flies, and it was already 130pm. Hohoho... off we going home. But mom suggested to go to SuperSave before reaching home. So we headed to Seria. Muahahaha.... Another drive. Was told to drive 100km/hr, yet I flew the car to 120 sometimes to 140. Mom really wants to kill me for that. *MOM said I am a tomboy. Whooow, I am a lady who like fast car ;P*

In the end, we reached home at 430pm. A long day and a long drive. But I love it.

Came home happy with a lot of shopping.

Need to go and get my mask off. Good night everyone, sweet dream. Miss all the fun on LJ and everything back at Perth.

I am being a slacker
or The world around me is making me into one
living in the same roof with ppl who doesnt make any concern about me....


I should have just stay in Australia... coz Brunei is such a dull country
no job no life no music no freedom
internet hell slow
service here are bad too...
people are kinda biased

and going to take up a driving test or any government thing like renew passport, renew license need kopi-O aka tips aka money for drink... not just one or 2 $$$
is $100
$200 like that... such an arogant ppl...

not a peaceful country at all... everything doesn't really go with the rules....

like going MIRI... the toll fees should be $3... yeah
and some idiot give $2 so no ticket given... $2 for the staff to pocket in.... $1 saved by the travellers and sometimes... they save $3 by giving back the tickets.... why not making the god darn toll fee as computer count system like MIRI toll fee service for their bridge....

this way government lost money ... and their working staffs pocket in... each day can make hundreds...

let see last time I got my driving test... I passed ok... but while I was waiting for my turn, the what so call Officer they called certain people in and ask for minum... aka tips again.. if no tips they will not sign the paper as you pass or fail the driving test depend on them... well  each day have like 15 student taking the driving test... half of them giving tips off the officer, whow what a great way to cheat the commoners money by eating up $100 and $100
I heard a middle-aged man said that he just gave $170 to the officer in order to make his daughter to pass the driving test. Last time, that officer failed her daughter because of not following instruction. this time follow the rules... they still ask for BIG TIPS!!!

what a world? The government seem to be ignorant to this matters and lots of peple wont defy them as they are superior than us commoners. What so good beig born ino this country with so many discriminant between them and us. Beind born here doesn't consider us Bruneian. And while travel to other country people tend to ask the same question... which country are you from if you are not a citizen of Brunei? I have answer this question like forever. Stateless to Permenant Resident is nothing... soon we might be cast out.... Like for jobs with the higher authority always demand for their own kind "CITIZEN". So why I ahve to come back to this country to be here and stalling every single moment and being regreting... for sure...

I want a leave... far away from here...
I wanna to take off o a place where no one will discriminate me as who I am

I wanna to be far away from all these corrupted society...

Sorry Brunei... you may be peaceful and beautiful and small... like my History teacher used told me... like I used to look at Brunei as one peaceful lovely country but the truth is there are a lot of ugly behind the mask. So beware and be prepared for the worse to come...

Mood Swing...
A terrible broken soul...
Ignore the fact I am being the extra...

Hate the fact that my earning of special goodies has been destroyed because of my blood idiot stupid decision...
because of my kindness...
regret a huge part of my life...

I am a bad girl...
I am a mean girl...
I am such a headache
I am a pain in the ass...

Being here...
Never been perfect...

When was the time that everything changes...
I always think too much...
Worried too much...
Having all the bloody nonsense burden over my shoulder...

Making me very sick...
feeling very heavy and feel like vomit all the time...

No one really listen...
Whining also cause problem...

shut the hell up...
go away...
ever since young I wish to be sick...
But i only have like 2 sickness...
well it should be 3 real sickness...

Primary 1 - no. one big escape from the real world
Form 2 - a whole week without exams..,
Uni year 2 - Sore throat - lost my voice for the first time for the whole week... flu cold season during winter

I am as strong as an ox
People having fun, why I am here feel like crying...
Just all of sudden there will be an aching...
because of all the pressures I consume...
I cannot speak up...
No one bother...
they would say none of their business...
or whatever...

I feel a lot dumber...
Nothing seems perfect...
Of cause nothing will be perfect...
Everything is so stressful here...
I feel like having a boxing class...
I feel like go for a run...
But with this stupid place...
Nothing is convenient at all...
why here is so difficult...

the jerk ass is annoying...
sometimes I feel like I will be killing someone...
The world keep getting older by every seconds goes by...

But I am strolling here...

with this bad ass... attitude...
with this fantasy...
If I am living in the world tallest building...
I cannot guarantee that I will be here tomorrow...

Suicide comes across this idiot mind...
I cannot ever escape this life that I have been living for years...
I don't even know when it happened...
Split personalities are such a nuisance...

Everyone has their split personalities up to a level which consider them still a normal human being...
But in this case...
There seem to be more than the normal people...
The goodies girl that always linger around seem to vanish at this point...

I detest the people at below...
I detest this body...
I detest my health...
But I have to be the one to convince and love myself again...

Today is the first day of this Ox’s year...
That I am being such a loser...
Why?
I am turning into this annoyed super dumb chick...
People says music can cure one broken soul...
My soul...

I am tired of people say about me...
I am tired of people lying at me...
I am tired of reading people minds
I am tired of my strong sixth sense...
I am tired of me being such a pathetic being...

I need to embrace my broken soul... with another personality...
It is always hard to recover from such downfall...

Hahaha I am ok... thanks for all the regards everyone sent me... I feel much better with my HOT WATER BOTTLE.. addicted to hotness.. and have some pills.. i hate medicine

Yeah the bones - lower back.. they can really make a music soon... XD
it crack like so easily.. even the knee bones too...

no have this tape again taping my back around the kidney area to support .. and avoid weird movement.. it really will pop out the bones...


my mama said might need to go to the real deal... check my bone.. might have some problem..
for me I think, lack of calcium... drink more milk..

Well.. I need to go pick up my laptop... my bb.. overloaded last week and die


and this baby is so .. speechless...
<3

Yo... I am alive
Just thought that I am going to loss my hip bones.. XD
The scary thing is sitting for few hours and sudden movement can make a huge mistake
The right hip bone has been shifted and there was shape pain... Just before I wanted to go to sleep at 1230am.
In the next morning, At 6am, waking up could not get off bed, luckily I lower the baka bed to normal... before was stacking up to double storeys.
Was hell thirsty and couldn't bare it, forced myself off the bed. Crawl all the way... to the door, and finding the table to support.. seem like really loosing the lower body... no strenght or what so ever.
Cannot sit down, Cannot stand straight. The pain is just there. took the phone and start making calls. Darn.. it was crazy...
the lower body seems to be lock and refused to move as the pain was too much... book in an appointment for physiotherapy.

took a miracle taxi.... I made it into the back seat, and sat down, OH SHIT... THe right hip bone just twist and it is a big twist twist..... but the taxi seat is always so comfy.. perfect softness perfect curve..
then I did not need to drag myself out, I can stand and walk perfect... whow... but it did not last long before the pain was back...

The therapist said the bone is lower on the right. it shifted quite a bit about 2 inch for my guessing.. after massage and putting it back to position the pain still there...
now living with tapes on my back... and my first time to get a HOT WATER BOttle.. XD
Pain killer... I don't like to take medicine.. for the pain, forcing myself to get it...
The bones can crack loud and can feel it moved... behind the skin
My skin is very thin.. can really feel every thing, can see all the nerves etc...
luckily not thin enough for me to see through my heart like baby skin.. that would be shocking...
Now still hurt like S**T... scared is the back bones problem... scared its bones problem...



dango dango dango ....
first dango .. should have buy the mooncake... ahhh it was a month ago mooncake festival...
not very nice dango.. but kawaii...

Hungry Jack's Quad Stacker Sparks Outrage

I have wanted to check how gross it is...

as last month when it came out, ROVE live and news claim this AWESOME (**as if... FATTY) baby is worth like 80 bar of timtam
hahaha I always LOL when I saw the ad... but think they stop the menu... will see.. lemme check tomorrow.. if I get a chance to drop into one of the shop... XD



look at it... check it out NO SALAD... jus 4 beef patty, not enough, 4 x bacons and cheese too... ewww AUSSIE is getting obese...
they are always bbq ... meat meat meat....
should see how they shop .... in their trolley.. especially Saturday.. when I saw the family with 2 trolleys... and full of fizzy drink .. yuck... junk food.. yuck.. lots of meat...  well they do shop for some veggies... for their roasted veggies and salad...



well when I was younger I stacked my sandwiches at least 4 bread slices, with lettuce and mayo and tomatoes... no as creepy as this one I guess... when I was younger I was sort of like a binge eater...  well... it was not I was a binge.. I was brought up like that ... thats why always have the baby fat... chubby face.. XD old friends said I am chubby kawaii.. I hate it..



taken from http://aht.seriouseats.com/archives/2008/09/hungry-jacks-quad-stacker-sparks-outrage-australia.html

Health experts in Australia aren't happy about the Quad Stacker, the new burger by Australia's Burger King equivalent Hungry Jack's made of "four beef patties, four slices of cheese, two rashers of bacon, barbecue sauce and two sugared buns." (The burger originally came out in Burger King in 2006.) Dietitians are calling Hungry Jack's irresponsible for marketing a burger that contains 1080 calories and 71 grams of fat and, as the article helpfully points out, doesn't even come with a salad. Because a salad would really help.

But as even bad publicity is still "good" publicity, people are curious to try the deathly burgers. Phil Han of National News Nine puts the burger to the test and initially likes it for its "great smoky flavor making it taste as if it came right off the barbie." 20 minutes after finishing the burger, the discomfort sets in: "I can't get rid of the greased feeling—there's a brick in my stomach."

At least it's not a 100 x 100 from In-N-Out.

A new life!!! Will be back in October... hopefully... today will be the last day of my Zetsubou...

today is my OnE Year anniversary of being alice nine. fans... whee Congratulation to me!!

I guess I went to overboard and got myself too much goods..overspent last year but it was cool
**slap myself .. shud have listen to mom n dad.

the bedroom ... apparently my living ground is still a mess... (can you believe it - never ending cleaning - reason for that is because I always buy buy buy from last yr Oct till April 08 non stop buying.. everyweek will always have new thing)
I stopped and control myself yet... still

Yoshhh...

This is sure will be a long list to complete!!!

1. GYM 6am-9am (too chubby)
2. clear my bookcase
3. tidy the UNI books
4. organise all Jrock goods
5. wardrobe (too many clothing cannot fit me anymore.. I gained too much weight XD)
6. UNI NON finish business Xxxxxx LOTS
7. ticket to go HOME??? Maybe
8. Work
9. old aussie magazine to the bin ??? too much... more than 100.. darn 100 x 6 ~ $600-1000 gone...
10. OLD JEWELERIES... anyone wants... a dollar each.. brand new.. I really donno what to do with them...
11. 2 x GUITARs errrrr wat to do with them... better cut my nails and pick the guitar score up...
12. sort my anime first later need to get a $199 1TGB HDD... muahaha i think is 189
13. put up my alice nine poster.. that fall onto my bed... **bad alice nine.. ppl sleeping and jump onto bed with me
14. my cosmetic box... too many old one... bad bad bad.. I am not into beauty..
15. put away all junk... or throw...
16. try sleep regularly (I slept at 6am or 8am till 4pm sometimes... ) and times seem like fying... and I am broken after that.. Broken as in soul and health **trying to turn back the body clock
17. fix my back, left leg and chest, left eye
18. now sleep first...
19.  Scans
20. upload
21.  

How to fall into a Zetsubou state?

It is easy! Lack of sleep; Lack of exercise; Lack of motivation

PMS is so annoying and plus, bloody annoying!!!
Bloody hate the body!!! Getting fatter over winter. Now Spring... should start working out... Yet I haven't been to gym for ages..
I can't get myself up to go early in the morning...

Yeah slept at after 5am??? Why??? Everyday!!!  I cannot sleep before 12!!! and between this time, I totally don't remember what I had been doing!!! The brain is serving poor memory... T____T
I couldn't even remember a lot of people I met.. this is a disease, isnt it..?

I am suppose to do something and finished it in 3 months ago...
what have I done, slacking off here....
Fuck... I cannot pick the pieces up...

and started falling down the hill towards HELL... Everyday dreamt of extreme... its scary at one point...
this is when a person stress but when awake couldn't realized it...
and in sleep, wondered off to do all the work and find herself in HELL situation...
everything is too much...

I need someone cane me and wake me up... No I am not a {M}, although  am awake for most of the time... but am LOST...
totally lost the interest... of ...
God, please turn back time for me!! Just this once!! But you cannot do that right?
All I need to do is to refresh myself!!! Do my best find myself back from this dark misery mysterious world I am in!!

I never ever had such a dream before,
the dream was like I was in this school group with a group of other people, perhaps we were in a school trip or something, when we were about to go home, we were at this foyer, and I saw this wall was full of brochures and wallies calendars. They were so pretty and as I saw there were extra, I assume we could take some home. **I am a girl who loves free things and always have extra one or two on hand

Then here come a lady in a golden creamy dress, she was sort of like a fairy, and she was.But I kept recall her as a pixie. Actually she was suppose to be the school principal. She told everyone that she will chant some tongue language to whoever interest but it would be dangerous, as the person who received the chant have to lean his/her left ear to the mouth of the pixie.. and oh boy.. it is really some weird chanting... most people ended up happy as if they understand. I did not dare to do it, as some I saw the more the person lean towards the left towards her mouth, the more the person becoming weird **cannot explain how weird? But it was like the person will lost his soul.

Then after the chant, people who received usually took a leap to the right. But all the people will said [took a leap to the left]
Couldn't they tell where is left and right? It was then I got the courage to ask for the wisdom **that is what I called it** then I pointed out it was a leap to the right. I leaned towards her mouth, some weird noise or voice.. it was like ghost whispering kind, or kids whispering... my mind was running wild, and the heart was beating fast. The adrenaline of the body was also double up... it was as if I was being pushed towards the left and got sucked into the other dimension.

That was when I woke up, puzzled, and grumpy. I have been dreaming odd dreams. And it is not pleasant at all.

This is steps by steps...
My.. way... though there is a little sticking on the poster.. but it won't spoil it at all...

a way that no need spend money jus need some time.. XD **I am stingy :P

the process takes quite long...
1- cut strips x4 for 4 corners
2- folding precisely,
3- stick the edge, in B, (the line in the lower trapezium!!
4- then put to the corner of poster,
5- cut square sticky tape to stick the strips to the poster back ( refer smiley face)
then all 4 corner done
6- cut sticky tape long enough as shown in D, the double head arrow... sticky on the wall.. ^^

Hahaha Spent time to stick the poster up...
Without really ruining it..



Half of my GIANT posters are up...
I just realized.... that RAINBOWS GIANT POSTER... left lower corner... it said STOP COPY!!!

OMG.... O_O Now Now.. really I am urging everyone.. try your best to own a copy of ORIGINALS...

Darn.. I went and dig the thing under the bed...
guess what no matter how I throw them
still ended up having lots of junk

before


after

no wonder my brain is not working

too much junk...
a room represents a person brain

XD

still in process of clearing up...


I will throw all the magazine away...
who want my mag can email me!!!!!! before they ended up in the bin on Thursday

before


after


Now have to fold the clothing into the cupboard.. XD
set my bed...

thats just half of the room
the other half.. errr
ERRRR

NO EYES CAN STAND!!! GARRRR mustr THROW ALL.... IF I WILLING TO... THE OTHER HALF THE ROOM IS ALL JROCK...


UPDATES 630pm

HAAHA SUPPOSE TO TIDY UP... ENDED UP PUTTING UP ALICE NINE.
PUTTING THE BED LIKE THIS... EASIER... **A LAZY WAY TO SURF THE NET..XDDDD







THE HUGE GIANT POSTER I GOT FROM VS ... WHEEE ACTUALLY I GOT LIKE A LOT OF GIANT POSTER... STILL DON WANNA PIN IT UP...



SAGA RIGHT NEXT TO MY BED... HAHAHAA

I have to stay away from the laptop or desktop ...
if not I cannot get this cleaning down...
since I am into it...

but my tummy is roaring...
**it says feed me XD

need to change the furniture setting.. but boy if I wanna change I have to move the things under my...

STACKED UP BED.. remember last time I post pics abt my room.. same as usual.. XD messy...

Used to be a clean freak.. its weird.. how messy I can get..
the other personality conquer for too long..
better change.. back... or else.. I myself suffer the most...

be back...with pics... HOHO

Going out is sure tiring!!!

My heart is acting up!!!

Bra is too tight!!! Think the boobs really grow bigger XD LOL

Took me the effort to go to the post office... so far...

and ended with a POSTER TUBE!!! What the hell?? Why a poster tube?? 

My mind kept telling me "Yes!!! The digiprints are here!!!"

And I saw the tube, the post office lady took forever to scan the barcode. I dig through the tube and found a poster.. giant poster of RAINBOWS. Same as the flyer. Sigh... Asking myself?? Looking into the tube??? Where are the digiprints?? 

?__? all puzzled... then came home, looking into the postbox,
darn another post office notice card

Now this one should be the digiprints. Tommorrow have to go. VS told me its 22 of them... hehehe.. let see.. 22 huh..
 

Oh did a bit of shopping...
pick another photo album up.. since the old one not enough.. ^^
pick a shaver.. guess what.. shaver I bought.. the "MEN" one. hahaha quatro blade with razor... and its electric function.. HAHA... I was thinking getting the 5 blazor for women.. and its jus 3 dollar more..
since I really wanna try the MEN newest razor.. heheh $12 no bad.. cheap...

LJ is acting weird!!
try to revise my post, I can't view it in Rich Text!!
Make it so hard to change thing in HTML >_<